Tuesday, April 18, 2017

Exposed: The Silent Epidemic That Is Killing Our Iraq & Afghan War Vets


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(I am reposting this 2008 piece because I became reacquainted with an old friend of Nick's, and his story is worth retelling.)
Nick was never the same after Vietnam.  He would lapse into deep depressions.  He let his teeth go, chain smoked cigarettes and pot and drank way too much booze, fought with his wife and would leave home for days at a time after suffering nightmares about the people that he had killed and seen killed. 
I was one of the very few people who knew about Nick's Vietnam experience.  It was horrific -- skippering a Navy river boat that patrolled the Mekong River.  You know what I'm talking about if you've seen Apocalypse Now.  Nick lived Apocalypse Now. 
It helped that Nick eventually was diagnosed with a condition that was long known as Shell Shock, among other misleading names, but has only relatively recently been given a fancy clinical name -- post traumatic stress disorder. 
Even with the Veterans Administration's tough standards, Nick was an obvious candidate for 100 percent disability and got it, but I have to wonder if he would be so fortunate today. 
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The psychiatric fallout from the wars in Iraq and Afghanistan has reached epidemic proportions, but it is a largely silent epidemic, poking its hydra head into our lives only when a returning vet loses his shit and shoots up a convenience store or you notice the flashing lights of an ambulance down your quiet suburban street and see the body of a returning vet on a gurney being wheeled from a garage after he ended it all by sucking automobile exhaust fumes. 
The breadth and depth of this epidemic is extraordinary: The number of suicides from the twin wars may exceed  the combat death tolls because of inadequate psychiatric care, although those numbers aren't even being accurately calculated because of VA cover-ups. 
The VA itself estimates that at least 60,000 returning vets suffer from PTSD, but that is a conservative estimate and other observers believe that the number is much higher. 
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Ilona Meagher talks and writes about PTSD and frequently opens book events by listing a few of the 80 or so names for the disorder in the popular lexicon.  These include Old Sergeant Syndrome, Railway Spine, Buck Fever, Swiss Disease and War Syndrome in addition to Shell Shock. 
The multitude of names tell us a couple of things: 
* Each generation has to rediscover the horrors of PTSD. 
* Each generation does not want to have to deal with those horrors. 
Part of this is because there is disagreement among some clinicians about what exactly PTSD is.  Part of this also is that "cowardice" is never far away in discussing PTSD. 
The notion that "you have to be a man" and not admit to pain or emotional distress runs deep in the military psyche, and begins to explain why there are so many cases of soldiers in Iraq being punished for saying that they had emotional problems, which is one of the war's more obscene outrages. 
While I did not expect my sergeant to kiss my boo-boo or read me a bedtime story, my one (non-combat) injury while serving in the Army was treated with disdain and ridicule even though I bucked up and tried hard to be a man. 
Meagher cuts to the chase when she writes: 
"The reality is that combat PTSD – or whatever we once called it, or whatever we're going to call it next – calls into question the human reliance on war to solve our problems. 
"While we may wish that our smart bombs and our superior military power will so overwhelm our enemies that our wars can be clean, quick and painless – and without any blowback on us or those we’ve sent to fight in them – there's no debating that war trauma has always existed, and it will exist as long as we wage war.  In many aspects, the war trauma of today can be more debilitating that that of previous eras . . . but a lingering shock to the system following combat has been a common thread that ties each generation to the next." 
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Is there any correlation between the PTSD and suicide epidemic and the perception of many people that the Iraq war is improper at best and immoral at worst, as well as the seemingly endless and changing rationales offered by the White House for the war? 
In other words, a Marine charging up a Japanese-held beach in the South Pacific during World War II knew that his was a war against global fascism, while a Marine charging into an insurgent hotbed in Anbar knows that his is a war for what?  Oil? 
I tried out this theory on a VA psychiatric nurse whom I have known for many years and a psychoanalyst, both well experienced in dealing with PTSD, and their answer was the same: Absolutely and unequivocally yes. 
The psych nurse would not go on the record.  Something about not wanting to lose her job, but the psychoanalyst was more than happy to and does a slow burn over even the use of the term PTSD, an acronym that she believes anesthetizes too many people to its horrors. 
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Nick would go fishing when he would run away from home, sometimes to a "secret" pool on a slow-running creek during trout season, and sometimes to the ocean where he would let the air out of the tires of his old GMC Suburban, drive onto a desolate stretch of beach and surf fish to his heart's content. 
Like I said, I was one of the very few people who knew about Nick's Vietnam experience.  I suppose that's because he respected me.  I could talk intelligently about his favorite topic, the weather (Nick always had the Weather Channel on at home), would put up with his bullshit when he was in one of his moods, and I had known his first wife, who had confided to me that Nick would nightmare over accidentally killing a little Vietnamese girl.  
Nick and I were sitting in our neighborhood bar one afternoon.  It was nearly deserted.  Nick was especially melancholy and had little to say as he chain smoked Marlboro Lights and sipped on rum and Cokes in seven-ounce rocks glasses. 
A creature of habit, Nick always drank Mount Gay rum and Coke in a seven-ounce rocks glass with a certain amount of ice.  He drove bartenders crazy over the ice and had to train newbies when they gave him too little ice or too much ice.  Nick had calculated how much ice it took to keep a drink cold but not dilute the rum before could finish it.  He also always wore an open-collar shirt, never a T-shirt, and dressed immaculately even as his teeth were falling out, a reflection I suppose of a need for order because of the utter disorder of his bloody tour on the Mekong. 
I was drinking a beer, watching the smoke from Nick's cigarettes slowly ascend through shafts of sunlight toward the nicotine-stained ceiling while silently looking forward to a state-mandated indoor smoking ban that would soon take effect when he asked me if I had ever seen a dead person. 
I explained that I had seen a few too many in the Army but many more as a longtime big-city newspaper reporter and editor. Fire and murder victims, mob hits, a plane crash, that kind of stuff. 
He then asked me if I had ever seen a dead child. 
Once in my youth when a kid fell into a water-filled construction ditch and drowned and twice at fire scenes, I replied. 
"But never a child with a sucking chest wound," he said, referring to an unfortunate consequence of being hit with an M-16 rifle round that opens a massive hole in the chest and collapses the lungs. 
"No," I replied. 
Nick looked away from me.  When he turned back a single tear had formed in the corner of one eye.  It rolled down his cheek and splattered on the bar. 
A week later, in fact four years ago today, Nick died and finally was at peace.



1 comment:

Thomas Ford said...

Thanks, Shaun.

Although I knew much of Nick's story, I never knew this particular detail. It explains much.